As time goes, I'm slowly running out of it. Well my life as an "E" is fast melding into my life as a "G."R says that nothing will change, in for the most part, he is right. There is that small part of me that thinks "what does it mean to change a part of your identity?" Am I really changing all that much? It's just a name. I'm still me, I'll wake up and still be S.. so is there really anything to lament?
In all, no. I don't gain a third arm or my blood doesn't change. But it will take some getting used to being Mrs. G. I'm happy to take his name, just sad to see the other one go. I wont miss the horrible mispronunciation or mangling of the simple name that is my maiden name. My married name is so much easier, but not without new name callings and comparisons for my possible future off spring.
I think that is going to be the biggest change for me. I know it sounds silly and trivial. I'll still call myself and "E" but I'll now also be a "G." A new identity to forge within this new distinction. Only time will tell what will happen within this new path. I am excited.
A new adventure is upon both R and I. We are off to drive each other crazy and make each other smile. My wish above all else is to be as crazy about us as my parents are in 30, 40 and maybe 50 years... if we don't kill each other first.
In 15 days, the new beginning will officially start. He and I start what we've been doing for over two years now. Being a team, (something I'm not great at, but I'm learning and he's patience with me so it's good), helping each other through what ever may come, compromising and sacrificing a little here and there.
